"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

Saturday, April 12, 2014

God's moving

And then, God did it AGAIN!  So CLOSE!

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Praying BIG

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Fairview Half

I woke up so nervous to run my half this morning.  I was nervous because I was running it solo and also because I didn't feel as prepared as I was for the cowtown half.  The best thing was that I live only 15 minutes away and did not have to wake up at the crack of dawn and I slept really well the the night before.  The weather was perfect running weather.  Cool and cloudy.  My Garmin watch did not charge the night before for some reason, so I decided to make it a goal to stick with the 2:20 pacers.  The course had so many hills and was pretty tough.  But, I got to see my boys and Joel around mile 9 cheering for me and Megan, Joey and Hudson around mile 10.  It helped me push through.  I finished at 2 hours 18 minutes and 29 seconds.  8 minutes faster than the Cowtown.  I really wanted to set a new PR, but wasn't sure I could do it...but, I did.  I ran it at a 10:34 miles/hr pace.  Joel, the boys, Megan, Joey, Hudson and CayeDee were all at the finish line cheering me on.  Now trying to decide what is next! 


Wednesday, April 2, 2014

While We Wait...

We CELEBRATE what God has done for us!

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

36 Months

36 months or 3 years or 1097 days...but whose counting?  And the great thing about this is that God is not shocked by this number.  He is writing this story and I am supposed to just walk in obedience.  He has done a huge work in me over the past three years.  It is funny (or not) that I thought I had this all figured out three years ago...

He has pruned me and changed my heart.
He has taught me patience like no other.
My hands have gone from a tight grip of control to completely open in surrender.
He has taught me to lean in and abide in him.
Trust him in the unknown.
He is Big.  So much bigger than I had thought before.
He doesn't fit into a box.
He is merciful when I am acting like a fool and not trusting.
He stills my anxious heart.
He has taught me that this is not about me.  
His timing....Oh his timing...it is perfect. And again, not about me.

You know what has happened to God over the past three years.

He is constant.
He is unchanged.
Hebrews 13:8 "He is the same yesterday, today, and forever."

I am reading "Restless" by Jennie Allen and it is such a great book.  She says "God does not see days, he sees eras."  This has not left me and it has been so powerful to me.  He doesn't see the three years as a wait at all.  He sees the big picture and He is the painter of that picture.  I just need to let Him paint.  I have written in my bible over and over again that "God is God and you are not".  Simple, yet something I obviously need to remember.  I'm not God. Plain and simple.

So, today, I am not concerned about the time, because it will happen when God is ready for it to happen.  I am full of hope because of a God who loves me so intimately. Just recently, I have prayed for some encouragers to come along and speak truth into me along this journey and He did just that.  I have some amazing women in my life that are lifting me up in prayer today and speaking truth into me today.  I woke up this morning filled with peace.  I am not going to say that the day has not been without a few tears.  But, I am confident in God's promises.
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we can ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." Ephesians 3:20

I don't know how much longer.  I don't know when she will be home.  But, I do know that God is sovereign and nothing is impossible for him.  So, I am just going to enjoy the journey and keep my hands wide open in surrender to him and watch him paint this beautiful picture.  And today, we are going to celebrate our GREAT, BIG, AWESOME God that has put this Great, Big calling on our lives.  And we are going to thank him for pursuing us, for changing us and for loving us deeply along the way.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Praying and Believing

Everyday, I wake up and I pray "Today, Lord, let it be today. Move mountains TODAY."  It is written in my journal every.single.day.  And I fully believe it will happen today until it is bedtime and then I do it all over again.  I know God can and will do it.  I have recently been praying for encouragers to push me along in this LONG journey and God has done that for me.  I have women that are speaking truth into me and believing along with me that this is going to happen today and they believe along with me that God is going to move this mountain.  And at every step, they are cheering along side of me.  Learning to surrender and just believe has been a huge work in me.  I am at a point where I am just watching God work and enjoying the journey He has me on.  Our girl is coming soon. I have no doubt.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Second Saturday

Every second Saturday, our church has an opportunity to serve.  This Saturday was working with Habitat for Humanity in building a house for a family.  I loved serving with this amazing group of people!

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Happy 11th!

Clayton just keeps getting bigger and older.  Every year it hits me hardest with my firstborn.  I cannot believe 11 years have flown by since I became a mommy.  What once stood a tiny little boy, is now a growing young man.  He is going on his first mission trip to Peru this summer and I am thrilled for this opportunity for him.  It will change his life.  He got to go to his first youth event at church on his birthday.  Crazy....part of the youth.  We had a fun day celebrating him and he said it was the best birthday ever!  He got Firehouse subs for lunch (his favorite).  He got to go to Jumpstreet with the youth.  He got a lemon cake (another favorite), a new 26" mountain bike with gears, and Babe's!  Happy 11th big boy!  

Saturday, March 1, 2014


That would be 35 months of waiting down.  Almost 3 years.  Next month might be a tough one.  We have spent the past month updating our homestudy and our I-171h and we are hoping that this will be the last one!  I say that every time though.  There was a little movement this past month, so that brings me a little hope.  We are praying every day that it is our day for our referral.  I am believing that until my head hits the pillow at night that today is the day we will see her face.