"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

Thursday, April 29, 2010

One day, Annie will be welcomed into the house of all boys.  She is going to be loved on by the most incredible big brothers EVER!!   Clayton, talks about her all the time.  He is the only one that really understands who she is at this point.  Several funny things he has said:
**"Mrs.Owens, I couldn't get a ruler for school today because we are saving money for Annie." (obviously not true, he just forgot to tell me he needed a ruler and was playing the sympathy card)
***"Why is Oliver sitting in Annie's seat at the table?  I thought that was her seat."
***"Why are you giving the rest of the stuff for the garage sale to the salvation army.  That is money you are giving away for Annie?"
***We were at the dentist to get both boys teeth cleaned and Clayton heard how much I had to pay (we don't have dental insurance).  In the car he said, "Why did we have to get our teeth cleaned?"  I proceeded to tell him about good dental hygiene and how important our teeth are and he said,"But what about Annie?"  He started to tear up, "Now it will take longer to get Annie." 
How loved this girl will be!!! 
It is amazing that a 7 year old can also love someone and long for someone that hasn't even met or seen.  This boy has such a kind heart and such compassion.  He is our little caretaker and worrier.
I had to explain to Clayton that we are doing our best to get to Annie as quick as we can, but we still have to live our lives.  We still will get our teeth cleaned and take care of all of his needs for school and for daily life.  We are still going to do fun things, take a vacation.  I also have to remind myself of this daily.  I have these three amazing sons in front of me and I will enjoy every moment of this precious family I am a part of.  I will not let these moments pass me by because I am waiting for the next step. 

(side note for the picture up top.  This is a rarity.  They asked me to take a picture of them this morning.  Elliot is sick with fever and he was just sitting there with his head on Oliver's shoulder.  He is usually a little scared of Oliver.  So, a blurry picture of all three boys. Better than none.  Oh, and that is our new couch in the background.  Someone donated it to our garage sale.  My parent's bought it at the garage sale and ended up giving it to us!!  Such an incredible gift.  Our couch was "nasty" according to my parents and honest friends.)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010


This is where I am right now.  Completely discouraged.  Money has not fallen out of the sky into our laps.  It has not started to grow on our trees out back.  All of extra money we were supposed to have this month has gone to fun things like new tires, dentist appointments, and other exciting unexpected things!!  Bad weather scared away the garage sale traffic, so we didn't do as well as I thought.  The hospital is not busy again, so no work for me.  We are no closer to starting this process than we were 6 months ago.  So sad, so bummed.  My patience has worn thin.  I am confident we have been called to adopt, so why is it so hard?? Why did he call us when he knew we did not have the means to even begin?  Why?  Can I run away from it?  Would that be easier...to walk in disobedience the rest of my life??  The obvious answer is "NO" to that one.  Will we ever make it to Ethiopia? 

I have to remember that HE IS GOD (thanks to my awesome preacher husband's sermon this past sunday).  He created everything, is in control of everything.  God makes this clear in Job 38-41.  HE IS GOD.  Bottom line.  I can't question the calling.  I should not ask why. 

But, I am human and I want to get to Annie as quick as possible. I want her in my arms.  I want her to be a part of this family.  I want to love on her.  Can you see why it is so hard to be patient?

It is just a part of the journey, I guess.

Made Me Laugh

 "I LOVE Mr. Brian's baked cherry pies.  It is the best thing I have EVER eaten." -Clayton

Monday, April 26, 2010

We've been SLIMED!

Literally...this place was a complete slimed, cornstarchy MESS!!!!  But, we had fun!!

     2 cups cornstarch
1 cup water
food coloring
It is an interesting little experiment.  Next time the entire process will take place outside!!!!!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

My parents got a zoo membership and can take all of the grandkids and a guest for free.  We spent the whole day out there on Saturday while Joel was working.  With the membership you get all the carousel and monorail riding that you want.  The boys also got to ride a camel.  So cool!! 

 Nonna and Nonae treated the boys to some yummy ice cream before we left.
 I love how they always remain so nice and clean!  HA!!
Thanks, Nonna and Nonae.  We can't wait to go again!!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Time is FLYING

I looked at this baby today and he seemed so big.  With Clayton, I tried to move him to the next stage so quickly.  I was so ready for him to eat solids, drink from a cup, crawl, walk...etc.  But, with this little guy, I have tried to keep him little longer.  I didn't want to start solids, take him off of the bottle, and crawling.  I wanted him to stay tiny forever.  It didn't work.  Time has gone by just as quickly.
Three new teeth have poked out over the past week.  THREE!!  That means that he has 5 teeth.  That means he is big, not tiny.
Lord, please help me cherish every moment.  I just blink and the moments are gone.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Baby Dedication

1 Samuel 1:27 "I prayed for this child and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. 28 So now I give him to the LORD.  For his whole life he will be given over to the LORD."

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Adoption Update

A couple of days after we sent our application in, I got a phone call that we were approved.  I was so excited and relieved, but it was short lived.  The money due upfront was way more than we thought.  I sat there for a moment.  I could've cried my eyes out, but I was amazingly at peace about it.  I know that this adoption will happen.  God has called us to this.  He will make it happen.  I know that His timing will be perfect.  He has the perfect little girl for us.  There is nothing I can do to change this.  I praise Him for this! 

So, what are our next steps?? 
1.Praise the Lord that finally I have gotten to work some at the hospital.  This extra income will directly go towards our adoption. 
2. We are having a HUGE garage sale this upcoming weekend that so many people have graciously donated all of their stuff.  Our garage is full and only a tiny bit is ours.  A great friend of mine is out collecting stuff on her own time from her friends to donate.  We are so thankful.  Pray that we will have a huge turnout.
3.  We have a friend that is designing t-shirts for us to sell.  Hopefully, these will be coming soon.  Keep your eyes open for them on our blog. 
4.  Many people have just asked if they could just give us money or told us to set up a paypal account so they could donate.  So, that should be coming this week on my blog also.  I feel a little guilty doing this.  I don't like asking for money.  But, people have asked and I am amazed at how much people want to do to help us out.
5.  We are also looking into another agency that the fees are due more along the way than being so much upfront.  I don't really want to do this, but we have to do what is financially best to get to the end goal, our daughter.  The sooner we can begin, the sooner we will have her in our arms.
6.  We just continue to pray, be faithful to God, to be faithful with the boys that He has entrusted us with.  We continue to be patient and wait on God's perfect timing.

Through this journey already, people have just poured out their love and support.  I have a friend that is a lot further in her adoption journey that spent an hour on the phone encouraging me and giving me the words to help me press on.  It is so good to have someone that knows where you are and what you are feeling. My Mom calls everyday asking about Annie and talking about her and how excited she is about her.  She already buys her stuff.  It makes her seem so real, it makes her seem so loved.  I have had sweet precious friends/family drop of surprise flowers and encouraging words on the doorstep.  I have had a friend do everything she can to get stuff together for our garage sale.  Plus, today, this awesome story.  A friend was planning on donating stuff to our garage sale, but today her and her husband have decided to have their own garage sale and donate 100% of the proceeds to our adoption fund.  Now this is not even a friend I see on a daily basis, this is a friend I have connected with from Facebook.  We knew each other from elementary school.  I was sobbing, could not believe someone would do this for us.  I am so humbled.  God is so good!

Ecclesiastes 3:1 "To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven."
Ecclesiastes 3:11 "He makes everything beautiful in his time.  He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."

Ten Months

You are 10 months old!!!  So big!!!  You are now crawling everywhere and into EVERYTHING!!!!!!  I have to keep you contained in a small area or I will find you chewing on something tiny.  You are not quite so clingy anymore.  YAHOO!!  You want to be down and exploring.   You want to be anywhere your brothers are.  You love those boys.

You finally ate your first people food.  You had pancakes and didn't choke.  You have been so much slower than the other boys to take to solid foods due to some choking issues.  But, we think you have finally figured it out.
I found a lot of your pancakes on the side of your chair.  You were picking up tiny pieces and dropping them overboard.  Not such a fun game anymore now that we don't have a doggy to pick up the crumbs. 
You are now waving bye-bye, saying "woof woof" when asked what a doggy says, and "quack quack"(or something like it when asked about a duck.  You love to play peek-a boo.  But, for the most part you are just crawling around the house and pullling up on all the furniture.  You love pulling everything off of your shelves in your room.
Your favorite thing ever is Daddy's guitar.  You love it when he plays and you love to play it.  Every day we will find you crawling straight to Daddy's office to strum his guitar.  If I close the door, you will just sit there and cry.  It is the funniest thing.  You would sit there and strum on it all day long.

Your least favorite thing is the bath.  I am not sure why or where this fear came from, but you scream and try and crawl your way out everytime.  I have now put you back in the tiny baby tub with just a little water so I can manage a screaming, squirming baby just to get you rinsed off.  I hope this phase ends soon.  You have to take a bath.
I cannot believe that you are 2 months away from being one year old.  I love this stage.  I love how you are learning and soaking so much in.  I LOVE you , LOVE you ,LOVE you!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Urban Moms and Babies

If you know me well, you know that I DO NOT like staying at home.  I end up cleaning all day while the boys are destroying.  I go stir crazy.  I like to be out and about.  The boys are nicer and happier when we are out and about, which makes for a happier momma!!!!!!!  Joel was going to be gone all day Saturday and so was our sweet friends and neighbor's daddy.  So we decided to spend the day out on an urban adventure.  We started out on the DART rail.
We got off at City Place and rode up many elevators to get to the Trolley.  If you have never taken the Mckinney Avenue Trolley, it is a must.  It is free and really fun.

Precious Jenna.
We had these great plans to go up to the skylobby at the Chase Bank downtown.  The bad news for us was that it is closed on the weekends.  BIG BUMMER!!
But, right out front was this fun grassy area for our boys to jump and run and play.........
Nice, pretty, fluffy grass.....
...until a mean security guard kicked us out.  Since when is an outdoor area in downtown Dallas private property??  I questioned him about there being no signs, but he had no comment.  I am assuming that he just didn't want us there.  We wanted adventure, so we got it.  We hopped aboard the trolley and headed back to the West Village for some YUMMY Gelato at Pacuigo's.  We had some very interesting flavors mixed together in our little bowl. I hardly got a bite as it was like a pack of wolves eating out of this one tiny cup.
Hannah and Jacob enjoying the yummy goodness.

All in all, we had a great adventure of Dallas.  And we headed back to the burbs to our quiet, non-security guarded neighborhood where we could run and play as we please.