"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

Friday, January 27, 2012

Thankful for His Word

This week has been BLAH!!  It is crazy because last week was such a good week.  My heart was content, I was at peace with the adoption, financially felt secure, had a plan.  Then BAM!  This week, not content, not at peace, not feeling secure and without a plan.  I am upset that the adoption is taking so long with no end in site.  NO END!!  Mostly upset because there are 5 million orphans in Ethiopia and 78 orphanages and here we are... 1 1/2 years into the process and just at a stand still.  My heart aches for our daughter.  Then there is Uncle Sam...GRRRRRR!!!!  Not a friend of mine!!!(he started it all)  That is all I have to say there.  Then, my work has taken a nose dive in patients and I am not feeling secure at all in my ability to work.  Just not feeling it!!!  I am beat down and tired!  And God is saying....poor Erica, her pity party is so sad...HA HA..NOT!!!!  That is why I am so thankful for His living word, His grace, the truth!

Satan has been at full force in my life this week.  He loves to attack when you are feeling at peace and content.  I recognized it right away.  And this is what the word says "But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one."  2 thess 3:3.  "Be self-controlled and alert.  Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.  Resist him, standing firm in the faith.." 1 Peter 5:8  Satan was trying to devour me and for a moment, I was letting him.  I was believing his lies and motives.  He is a LIAR!!  I need to not let my guard down. "Test everything. Hold on to the good. Avoid every kind of evil." 1 thess 5:21.   I need to put on the full armor of God EVERY SINGLE DAY. "Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes". Ephesians 6:11

Today, I woke up and excited for a new day.  I put on the full armor of God, and I am ready.  I am trying to remember this "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1thess 5:18.  I am thankful that his mercies are new every morning.  "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.  They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:22-23.  How awesome is that!?  He forgives me for my discontentment, my lack of faith, anger and bitterness.  He has given me grace.

One last verse that I have found so powerful and I have held on to all week.
"The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"1 thess 5:24
It had a period in the bible, but I felt it deserved exclamation points.  AMEN????!!!!!  He's got this!

Now I just need to stand firm and believe it at all times!!!!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Ahoy, Matey!

 We had our 3 month check-up for Oliver's eyes.  Three months ago he was diagnosed with amblyopia (aka lazy eye).  With glasses, his right eye could see 20/40.  Today, after only 3 months, he can see 20/30 with his glasses.  I was so excited to see such a big improvement.  But, the eye doctor wants to be more aggressive and to start patching the good eye to force his bad eye or "lazy eye" to work even harder.  We have to patch his left eye (his good eye) after school until bedtime and all day on the weekends.  At first, Oliver was very excited about wearing a patch like a pirate.  After an hour, he was done with it.  Lots of fits and crying.  Being a pirate is fun, but not full time.  I can't imagine walking around with everything looking blurry.  I feel for him.
 You can't really see here, but he has a band-aid like patch on his eye.  We were trying something different to see if it would work better.  The eye doctor also wants him to be doing eye stimulating activities with the patch on.  She suggested word finds.???  He's five.  He plays all day.  So, we have been letting him play games on the computer more and playing angry birds a lot.  Eye stimulating enough, right?
Day one and day two have not been fun,  but it will get easier....I hope. 

Monday, January 9, 2012

Poor Daisy!

About 6 months ago (around her one year birthday) Daisy had a really bad ear infection.  I tried to treat it myself as I do with everything.  No one gets to go to the doctor unless you are in serious need.  But, my diagnosis and treatment for this girls ears was way off and I was making things worse.  Finally, I asked Joel to take her to the vet and also for him to ask why it felt like her hips were clicking when she would sit.  Being a NICU nurse, I know  about hip dysplasia in infants and to look for the clicking, not in dogs.  When he came home from the vet, he said he had bad news.  It was her knees and she needed double knee surgery.  UGH!!!  Not good news for me.  I am EL CHEAPO!!!  But, what was the other option?  She is the sweetest dog and had become a part of our family.  So, we started saving for the knee surgery.  We had the country surgeon option or the big city pet surgery center option.  We decided the country surgeon option. Half the price!!!   Kind of "Doc Hollywood" ish.  Love that movie!!  

So, today was the big day....knee surgery....WRONG!!! This little 13 lb. dog has hip dysplasia (this is very uncommon in small dogs).  Her right hip was completely out of socket and had been that way.  No wonder she didn't walk on it at all.  The other hip will follow one day.  I told Joel to ask them if we could forgo the x-rays since she obviously needed the surgery and why the x-rays (AGAIN, EL CHEAPO).  So glad they did them.  She had a femoral head and neck excision.  Kind of interesting.  Her body will make a pseudo hip joint.  The vet said she had probably been in a lot of pain for a really long time.  So sad!  She has never acted like she was in pain.  

So far, she is not a fan of the cone.  She did not sit down all night long and stayed in one spot.  I feel so bad for her, but I also don't want her to mess up the incision and have to take her back.  So, 14 days with the cone it is.  Sorry girl!!!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

9 months

DTE 9 months
273.931649 days!!  A really LONG TIME!!  

Goodbye 2011...

Hello 2012.
I am so looking forward to this year.  There is so much anticipation for the possibilities for this year.  It is possible for us to become a family of 6 this year.  I have so much hope for this.  I may be traveling 3 times to Ethiopia this year.  One time for sure.  I got my "Welcome to the Team" letter from Ordinary Hero for my mission trip in June.  I am excited, nervous, and did I say EXCITED!?!  I cannot wait to go and serve.

These are in no particular order.

1.  Lose weight (always on my goals list):  I will be at weight watchers this week!!  They have missed me.  At least that is what the card says that they sent me in the mail.  I have not missed them.  I have enjoyed eating and stuffing my face with fudge, pizza, christmas cookies, green and red m&m's ...etc!

2. Drink water:  I did not say more water because I NEVER drink water.  All of my liquid intake comes from Diet Dr. Pepper.  I know, so incredibly healthy.

3.  Letting go of things that are not important.  Enjoying everyday and moment I have with my children.  I was talking to Joel the other night and realized that in just 5 years Clayton will be 14.  14!!!!!  5 years flies by these days.  I need to enjoy him as much as I can as a child.  They are only little once.

4.  Being Content right where I am.  Not complaining about my circumstances.  Being Joyful right where God has me.
1 Timothy 6:6-8
But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it.  But if we have food and clothing be content with that.

5.  Spending time laughing and playing with my kids and putting laundry and house cleaning lower on the priority list.

6.  Figure out some sort of work out routine.  SOMETHING!!

7.  Journaling more.  Everyday??

8.  Take Vitamins

9. Live this verse out, "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.  But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.  For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." Matthew 6:19-21

10. Follow what I tell my kids every day.  Do unto others as you would have them do to you.  Matthew 7:12 "So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you you, for this sums up the Law of the prophets."  This is a hard one.  It is difficult not to treat people in the same way that they have treated me.  I had to say this out loud to myself the other day because I was resisting being kind to someone because of they way they have treated me. An eye for an eye??  Jesus specifically says otherwise.  I hope in 2012 to work on this one.

I was hoping to come up with 12 for 2012, but 10 was really hard.

Hope you have a blessed year!!