(A friend of mine designed this graphic for me. Isn't it lovely?!)
Over the past month, I have been down in the dumps about our lengthy adoption. It is not going the way that I had planned. I have said before that I am sometimes at peace with it and sometimes I am in a battle. Right now, I am just working on fully trusting God with this. I am trying to believe that he has this. I am so thankful that in these times of trial, that God has placed the most amazing people in my life, shown me scripture that has pulled me through and given me hope.
** Joel's sermon last week was about the authority of God and it was clearly spoken directly to me. It is so easy to forget how big God is and how teeny tiny I really am. How could I not believe and trust him? He made the world by just speaking. He didn't ask me how to do it. I am not in charge and he is my authority and the authority of ALL things. So POWERFUL!
**Two of the songs in worship that week were so incredible. The words spoke directly to me.
Ephesians 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.
I want to praise Him no matter what. There is no one like Him. Yaweh, Yaweh we love to shout your Name!!!!!!!
Listen to them. These Songs are AMAZING. I wake up to these songs. They remind me who He is and what He can do!
**I had the chance to meet my friend Carrie for lunch. It is such a blessing to have a friend who is also on the same journey. She understands. She is such an encouragement to me. She reminded me that it is a blessing that we have been called to adoption and to missions and that I should feel blessed and overwhelmed that he has called me to something so BIG. I walked away from our lunch encouraged and so humbled that God chose me to walk this path and to change lives for His kingdom. I have asked him over and over again (daily actually) to open my eyes and to break my heart and he has done just that. So thankful!
**BSF. Every week God speaks to me. This past week the title was "An Ideal Life". What do I define as an ideal life? More money? A cuter wardrobe? Luxury? Living the "American dream" by collecting more stuff? The principles of this week.
*A life of service to God requires humble submission to God's plan and God's people.
* For the Christian, the "ideal" life is not a life of ease but a life of service to God.
*A life of service to God requires dying to our life and living for Jesus Christ.
*A life of service to God requires following the spirit no matter what even into danger or death.
"I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me-the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace."
I must daily die to myself and live for Christ. I am here only to please God, not man. I am here to glorify His name and be obedient to Him. I am so encouraged and I am going to finish this race.
"Let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning it shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of god. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men so that you will not grow weary and lose heart." Hebrews 12:1