"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

Sunday, July 15, 2012

A Changed Heart- Post Ethiopia thoughts

When I first saw Ethiopia, my heart broke.  I have never seen such poverty.  My first thought was that this place is so backwards.  These people have nothing.  How could this be? But, as I have been home, I have realized that we are the ones that are backwards.  In Ethiopia, the people are so rich in spirit.  They have nothing, yet they share what they have.  They live in the tiniest "houses" I have ever seen, yet they don't complain.  They are thankful for what they have.  They are thankful for their daily bread. They are completely overjoyed.  Here, we have so much, too much yet we are so poor in spirit.  I am not pointing fingers, I am included here.  I have wasted so much time in my life focusing on what I don't have, grumbling, unsatisfied.  We have so many idols that keep us from God.  With every house I entered in at Korah, I cried out to God "Lord, please forgive me, I am so ungrateful."  God broke my heart piece by piece.  With every house, He stripped away all my desires for the things of this world.

Now, I am completely overwhelmed with all the blessings around me.  God taught me to be content.  He taught me to be thankful for where He has put me and where he currently has me.  He showed me that my home is AMAZING and good enough.  He taught me to be thankful for my daily bread and not want for more.  He has taught me to be grateful.  He as taught me that He is enough.  He showed me that even simple things like hot water and water pressure are blessings that I should not take for granted.  He changed my heart.

Everytime I close my eyes, I see a different face.  At times I cannot believe what I saw was real.  It was too painful.  It is too hard to explain or even describe.  I continue to see the face of the woman with leprosy and her two year old daughter.  I think of how I am here in my comfortable home with my pantry full of food, my closet full of clothes, my hardwood floors and she is still there...probably still sitting in that same spot, covered in flies....hungry.  I will never be the same....Thank you, Jesus, for opening up my eyes to the things unseen.

Matthew 6:19
Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, were moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.  But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy and thieves do not break in and steal.  For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

nice posting.. thanks for sharing.