"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

In the Blink of an Eye

He was a boy that was the lover of all things stuffed.  He always chose a stuffed animal over ANYTHING.  Build-A-Bear was his store.  He was a boy that always had at least two stuffed animals in tow.  Curious George and Bevo have been there since before he was born.  T-Rex joined them when he was three.  They have been inseparable.  This boy's bed normally had no room for him because there were too many stuffed animals aboard.  He would squeeze in.  He loved them all.  He would beg his Gigi to let him take home a beanie baby every time he was there.  They all had names and he never forgot a one.  Well, until recently.  I had noticed that George, Bevo, and T-REX were no longer squeezed and tucked in right beside him.  They were on the floor or under the bed.  What?  He can't sleep without this trio.  They are a part of him.  So I asked him and he said these painful words..."Mom, I am just not that in to stuffed animals anymore."  BREAK. MY. HEART. INTO TINY LITTLE PIECES.  Tears.  Literally in the blink of an eye.  

He may not need them to be there anymore, but I put the trio right back where they belong (and the yoda I made for him).  I need them to be there.

Expectantly

Over the past 2 1/2 years, I have attended BSF.  God has spoken to me so clearly through these studies. Last semester in the study of Genesis, I had been really disappointed.  Don't get me wrong.  I have learned so much about this book.  It is an incredible book.  But, I had not felt God working in me through this study. Was I not listening?  For the past two years, I have left almost every single week thinking that the lecture was written specifically for me.  Genesis, I just wasn't getting that.  I talked with a wonderful nurse friend of mine who also attends BSF and she has been blown away by Genesis this year.  What was wrong with me?  But the past two weeks, God has really blown me away.  I have been convicted and changed.  I love when He does this.

I go through so many different emotions when dealing with our adoption.  I go through phases of peace and complete trust, times of despair and impatience, times of fear, and then repeat the whole cycle again.  Last week, we studied Genesis Ch. 24.  It is about Abraham sending his servant to find a wife for Isaac.  As he goes to the well to find a wife for Isaac, he begins with prayer and he prays EXPECTING God to show up, he prays SPECIFICALLY for what he needs God to show him. And before he finished praying, the woman (Rebekah) came out and she said and did exactly what the servant asked God to show him.  Here's the convicted part...OUCH!  I have been lifting up our adoption to the LORD, but in the back of my mind, I have been doubting that it will happen.  Then the cycle begins...trust, despair, impatience, fear, repeat.  I realized that I need to pray EXPECTING this to happen and pray SPECIFICALLY for what I want God to do.  This has changed me so much.  And then I began to look back at Genesis and realized that God has been moving in me the whole time and maybe I was just not wanting to listen.  Stubbornness, pride....

It has been so eye opening to see how even Abraham was not perfect.  God spoke directly to Abraham.  He told him of the promises and blessings he had for him.  He made a covenant with him and still Abraham took matters into his own hands.  God promised him that he would have descendants too numerous to count.  I think he told him this nine times.  And he still didn't have faith.  But, God still had grace and mercy on him.  I am overwhelmed by his grace.  I don't deserve it.  None of us do.  

The week before, we looked at Ch. 21.  Sarah becomes pregnant at 90 years old.  The child they had been praying for.  Ch 21:1 "..and the Lord did for Sarah what he had promised.  Sarah became pregnant and bore a son to Abraham in his old age, at the very time God had promised him."  God did what he promised and it was on His timing.  Not on Abraham and Sarah's timing.  

I am praying in faith that God can and will do ANYTHING!  I am praying EXPECTANTLY for Annie.  I am praying SPECIFICALLY that she comes home this year.  And I am BELIEVING that he will do as he promised but I also need to  trust in HIS TIMING!!!  God know whats best for me!  "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding" Proverbs 3:5

Monday, February 25, 2013

Everytime....

Everytime I think I need more and I think I do not have enough, I just pull up this picture and it brings me right back. Your grace is enough.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

My Sweet valentines

I have the best valentines. We spent the evening feasting on heart-shaped pizzas (mine a no carb pizza :( ) and yummy cake (it looked yummy at least) and tons of sugar from the valentine's parties at school. Joel got me a new book I have been wanting! Happy valentine's day!!











Monday, February 11, 2013

Oliver's New Bike

Oliver wanted a new bike for his birthday.  A BIG bike.  His first bike was getting too small for him and the front tire was no good.  We have gone looking a couple of times, but there are just too many choices for him.  Today, I decided to just surprise him with his new bike.  Elliot and I found the perfect shiny, blue bike for Oliver this morning and had it set up in the garage waiting for him to get home from school.  He was so excited and said it was the BEST bike EVER!  For some reason, he had a hard time getting started on the bigger bike, but once he figured it out, there was no stopping him.  He is a very determined little big boy.  He has to figure out the hand breaks and was loving the kick stand.  Oh the joys of getting big!  (Joel was so so excited about the pegs...I don't even know what pegs are for.  Boy thing, I guess)






 I love these pics....totally this boys personality shining through!
I am so looking forward to many bike rides with this big boy!

Saturday, February 9, 2013

It clicked!

For today at least. He had his head in the game the whole time. He even almost made a basket!!! Way to go!

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Winner

Elliot dressed up for our super bowl wear your favorite team contest and he won! He wears this helmet almost everyday! Funny boy!

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Celebrating 7

We celebrated our new 7 year old the whole weekend.  It started on Friday with lunch and a cupcake at school.  Then his friends came over after school for an afternoon of Minecraft.  My kids are obsessed with this game.  I don't get it.....  

 We then headed out to Adventure Landing for a night of laser tag, arcade games, mini golf and pizza.



 Then we headed to Braum's for some Birthday Cake Ice cream.  Then home for tent building, more minecraft and a sleepover!
 The next morning, his actual birthday, we started out with a breakfast of donuts.  He had a basketball game that morning and was not thrilled about it, but he had lots of people that came to cheer for him on his birthday!  We celebrated with his team with cupcakes.  And Marlene and Jimmy brought him a special gift!
 After the game, we headed to McDonald's with Gigi and Grandpa for some lunch and play time.  For dinner we celebrated with Nonna and Nonae at Fudrucker's.  This is one celebrated boy!!!


Happy, Happy 7th birthday to one fun, loving, silly, witty, stubborn and fearless boy!  We love you to pieces!

Friday, February 1, 2013

22

22 months of waiting for our baby girl.  So thankful that God has given me peace as each month passes.  I am so thankful for all the prayers that continue from family and friends through this entire time of waiting.  We continue to pray that she comes home this year and fully believe that she will.