"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Our little Garden

My Paw Paw was an AMAZING gardener.  Besides his incredible faith in the Lord, this was what he was known for.  I did not inherit his green thumb nor did I marry a man with a green thumb.  It is just not one of our gifts.  But, Joel has been wanting to have a garden for many years and I have it on my 40 before 40 list.  I haven't marked a ton off that list and since I will be 36 in a week, I only have 4 years to go!!!  So, Joel built the bed out of some wood we have had in our garage for years and each one of the boys picked out something they wanted to plant.  Clayton picked a Jalapeno plant.  Oliver picked watermelon.  Elliot picked strawberries.  Joel picked onions and cucumbers and I picked a peppermint plant and lettuce.  We have got a lot going on in our garden.  Now if we could just have something survive!  My Paw Paw used to say a prayer over every single plant.  He said that is why they grew so well.  So, I think we need to pray over these plants daily because we have no idea what we are doing otherwise!!  Elliot seems to think we will have strawberries overnight.  It will be fun watching each one of them take care of their plant. 

 I finally put some flowers in my planter that I got in Round Top last year!

 I planted these last year and they died right away.  But then, this year, they came back and like crazy!!!  I love the pop of yellow in my flower bed.  It makes me really happy!!!

Grow, Little Garden, Grow!!!

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

He's in the small stuff too!

The beginning of the adoption process is called the paperchase. You spend months and months and months gathering all kinds of paperwork. A new marriage license, brand new birth certificates, fingerprints, criminal background checks, a physical with labwork, Fire inspection of home, home study, etc. etc. Everything must be notarized and approved. And then you are through. The paperchase is over. Whew! WRONG!!!! All of the paperwork starts to expire. Our home study was updated last year and will be updated again in the next few months. Our fingerprints will be redone for the 3rd time next week. Our physicals have to be redone...you get the picture. It just overwhelms me a bit. Or maybe A LOT!!! During the beginning round of paper chasing, Joel thought I had lost my marbles. But, this time my well check-up worked out to be around the same time as my document needed to be updated. Yippee!!! Sadly, I got a phone call today that my paperwork was complete but they don't have a notary. Ugh! I just wanted this to be easy. After I got off the phone, I prayed,"Lord, please make this easy. I am weary.". I got home and looked up notaries. They have a mobile notary service that charges $45 to meet you and notarize. Well, guess I will be calling tomorrow. But, at our connect group tonight I was talking about the paperwork and what I needed to get done and both of the women I was talking to said," I'm a notary". Seriously? Praise the Lord!!!! He hears me and listens to me even in the small stuff!!!! He reminded me today that he has not forgotten me!

Monday, April 22, 2013

He Will NOT Delay

God speaks to me so much through music.  I cry out to him through worship.  I have been singing this song all week in preparing for leading worship on Sunday. These are the exact words I have needed to hear this week.

Always by Passion Band

My foes are many
They rise against me
but I will hold my ground.
I will not fear the war.
I will not fear the storm.
My help is on the way
My help is on the way.

Oh, my God
He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through Always

Trouble surround me
Chaos abounding
My soul will rest in you.
I will not fear the war.
I will not fear the storm.
My help is on the way
My help is on the way.

I lift my eyes up.
My help comes from the Lord.

Lately, I feel like He is delayed (yesterday...many tears).  That He has forgotten me.  That is timing is so far off from my timing.  This morning, I read this verse.

Proverbs 19:21 "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails."

I remember back to the day that we found out Elliot was a boy.  A perfect baby boy growing inside of me.  But, I thought God had forgotten me.  That He had not listened to my cries out for a daughter.  I didn't understand.  I had prayed and prayed for a girl.  I had a name already picked out for her.  I had planned everything out.  I knew for sure that a baby girl was growing inside of me.  A girl that I would name Annie.  I hate thinking of this time now and I hate even admitting that these were my feelings, but it was real.  I felt so guilty.  I was grieving so much even though there was a tiny blessing growing inside of me.  Little did I know that it was the beginning of breaking my heart and opening my eyes to something so much bigger.  His plans for adoption.  My mother-in-law sent me this verse on that day.  I remember crying over it, but finding hope in it.  I had to read it daily.  It kept my eyes on Him and it brought me to this point where I am now.    Waiting for our daughter while loving on my precious son, Elliot.  He redeemed my brokenness. He knew on that day that not only was he going to bless me with an amazing son, but that he was already planning to bless me with a daughter.  

I don't understand the why.  I don't know the when or the how.  But, I know that His purpose will prevail.  His timing will be perfect.  He will not delay.  My God will come through ALWAYS.  I just need to keep my trust and hope in Him.  Easy enough, right?  I make it much harder than it needs to be.  I know that one day, I will look back on this time and say "YES, God knew exactly what He was doing!"

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Let's Go Fly a Kite


The weather is finally getting warm and we spent a fun morning with our friends,Gus and ashley,at the zoo. Or the "kazoo" as Elliot calls it.

Special birthday weekend

Nonna and Nonae decided to take Oliver and Olivia to six flags for the whole weekend. They got to stay in a hotel and spend two days there. He was so excited! They had so much fun! They also had a special dinner at the traildust. He rode the judge roy scream four times and the shockwave twice. My parents are so great about making memories with the boys.


A shout out to Mimi and Gongi for the sonic giftcards. The boys got to get whatever they wanted. They went for the sonic blasts!


Happy Easter.  This is all I have in the picture department.  I had a dead camera battery.  Oh, well.  It was a fun day.  Spent the morning at church.  Spent the afternoon with one side of the family and spent the evening with the other side of the family.  So thankful for our risen Lord!

All ten cousins on the Halpin side from oldest to youngest.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

2 years and 2 weeks (almost)

We have officially been waiting for Annie for 2 years and 2 weeks.  I forgot to post on our actual DTE date, so we are just a little bit closer now.  Things seem to be moving right along in the adoption world.  There have been a steady amount of referrals and we are moving up.  We are so close.  SO CLOSE!!  The estimated wait times right now are 24-30 months and we are right in that window.  People are getting referrals that have DTE dates that are a month before ours.  EEEEEEEEE!!!!!  I have not spent a lot of time looking at our waiting list.  Over the past two years it has brought be a lot of grief and despair.  Seeing us move up, move back again, move up a tiny bit, move back again.  It was hard for me, so I stayed away.  But, now that we are so close, it is giving me such hope.  Seeing our name nearing the top of the list brings excitement and anticipation.  It helps us focus on getting our home ready, getting our hearts and minds ready and getting our finances in order so we can have the money to bring this girl home.  It seems unreal in a way.

Last weekend we worked on getting a room prepared for her.  It is far from done, but we made the first steps.  We don't have a lot of space in our home so we had to move all of our clothes out of our master closet to make it Joel's new office.  It actually worked out really well.  Annie's room will be in Joel's old office.  We are now looking for in- room closet solutions since we lost our closet. Thanks to pinterest, I think I have found my solution!!!   I will sacrifice my closet any day for this girl!!!  We will just pretend we are in a cool loft apartment in New York!

My sister gave me this darling furniture for her room.  It will be painted white.  We need to add a door in the hallway and close in some french doors in our room, but after that this room will be PINK, PINK, PINK!  I have all of the gifts that people have given to her over the past 2 1/2 years stored up at the top of my closet.  It was so fun to go through everything and see how loved she has been for so long.  The baby doll was from my mom 3 Christmases ago.  The box was covered in dust.  I was so excited to set her out.

We cannot wait to have you in our arms, Annie!