"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

Friday, May 31, 2013

Last Lunch with this First Grader

Because he will be going to SECOND GRADE!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Last days

Last days are hard for me.  I don't like change.  But, it is time for a change.  Clayton started at South Garland Baptist Church MDO when he was 11 months old.  This was when Joel first started working here as the youth pastor.  Even after we left the church to start a new church, we continued MDO here with all three boys.  But, we have moved further and further away.  We now spend 4 hours a week driving to and from the church.  Marlene retired as the director in December and it has started to not make sense for us to be making this drive.  Plus, with Annie coming home next school year (Please, Lord. PLEASE!!), we have just felt God telling us that we need to have a season spent at home.  I spent so much time in prayer over this.  We feel that Elliot will be a help when Annie comes home.  He will be able to help her socially and verbally.  We just really have no idea what our next year is going to look like, so we are already preparing for what it may look like.  Plus, both Joel and I have realized that these boys are growing up too quickly.  Clayton is going to Intermediate School next year and has already entered into the lovely world of Tween-hood and he is growing and changing so much.  I really want to soak in all of Elliot that I can before he goes off to Kindergarten.  So, next year, I will be attempting to teach him his letters and giving him a jumpstart on reading.  Teaching is not my gift, so wish me luck!!  I work on his actual last day, so I was in tears as I dropped him off and picked him up.  Many of the teachers have watched all three boys grow from little babies.  They have all been such a blessing to us!  But, we must be obedient to where the Lord is leading us.


Clayton has worked so hard over the past several months for the musical Aladdin. They have had many after school rehearsals, so he had to sacrifice many days of minecraft for this. Ha!!! The musical was great. The 4th grade did such a good job. They even ran the sound, stage, and lights. Clayton had a big cheering section! Great job, 4th graders!

Bible makeover

My bible is off to get a makeover. It is completely falling apart. I nearly lost the whole book of Acts last year and glued it back in. Now, the whole cover is completely separated from the pages. I have had this bible for 14 years. Joel gave it to me for valentine's day after we were engaged and it had my new last name engraved on the front and the sweetest letter on the inside. This bible is full of highlights and notes and prayers and all my bsf lecture notes written in the margins. There is no way a new bible is an option. It means too much to me. So, I sent it off to be rebound and recovered. I cannot wait to get it back. We have hundreds of bibles around our house, but it is not the same. Come back soon!!!

Monday, May 20, 2013

Texas rangers

We got free tickets, spent 7 million dollars on hotdogs and nachos, but had a blast and made great memories!

Sunday, May 19, 2013


Our church is doing a GO BIG campaign.  There are several parts to the campaign, but one of them is to do something BIG to remember 2013 as the year you went BIG.  Well, I really want my GO BIG to be bringing Annie home, but I have not control of that, so I decided to GO BIG in another way.  I decided that I am going to run a half marathon this year.  YIKES!  I have already put it out there, so I am now accountable to all of you!!!  I started running at the beginning of this year.  I wanted to be able to just run a few miles just for a way to exercise.  But, I conquered the couch to 5k and I have even made it to a 10k (not an actual race, but on my own).  This is huge for me.  I have never run in my entire life.  In January I could not even finish day 1 of couch to 5k.  It have to really push myself and really focus.  I am determined.  I will make it to this half marathon.  

Yesterday, I ran my first 5k.  The TastyRun at the Taste of Addison.  I finished it in 32min 38 seconds.  That was a record for me.  I just didn't even realize how fast I was running.  Plus, they had yummy food after the race.  How fun is that?  I cannot wait for my next race. Next up....a 10K.   I am thankful for my running friend, Courtney Collins that motivates me.  And of course, my husband who always encourages and motivates me!!!

Friday, May 17, 2013

36 years young

My 36th birthday week was AWESOME!!!!  FYI Joel always celebrates my birthday the whole week.  I had a dinner date with my neighbor and friend, Hannah. My connect group had a birthday cake for me.  A sweet friend dropped off a yummy cupcake.  Many friends and family wrote the kindest words about me and Joel made it into a book.  It was the greatest gift I have ever received.  I got some new running shoes and spent the day at the zoo with Elliot and Joel.  We went to Smashburger for dinner (my favorite burger place. thanks to my friend, Carrie).  We ended birthday week with some Fro-Yo!!  It was such a great week!!!

Monday, May 13, 2013

How does your garden grow

All of our seeds are sprouting!!! We have tiny little lettuce, some little onion sprouts and the cucumber is really growing. The watermelon plant is not looking great, but everything else is alive and growing.

Great wolf lodge

Oliver is one lucky boy! He got invited to go to the Great Wolf Lodge by his cousin, Olivia. Plus, he got to miss 2 days of school. I know he had the time of his life. He was big enough this year to ride all the rides. He also got to eat at the Rainforest Cafe. He had so much fun celebrating Olivia's birthday!

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Mothers day

I am blessed!

How He Loves Us

Honestly, the wait has been hard lately. It just has. It is just part of the journey. God is molding, shaping and pruning me. It can be painful at times. As believers, we are not promised an easier life. But, we are promised his grace, mercy and comfort during these times.

On Thursday, my birthday, I went running early in the morning. I always go the same way. But, this time, I turned the corner and smelled the sweetest smell and then I saw this huge field of wildflowers. I had just run this route two days before and these flowers were not there. I know it sounds crazy, but they were there for me. On my birthday. I needed this. It was a reminder that I have not been forgotten and that he loves me.

Thursday, May 2, 2013


Wednesday, May 1, 2013

25 months and BIG WHINY BABY!!

You know what it feels like to be at the very end of your pregnancy?  You have waited for this baby for 9 months.  You bought new clothes for your growing body, you bought new clothes for the new baby, you prepare a room, you have showers. There is so much excitement and anticipation. But then, 36 weeks arrives and it becomes the worst 4 weeks of your life.  There is no sleep, food goes down but it burns coming back up.  Tums become your BFF.  No clothes fit, your back aches and you are just so ready to meet your baby.  You don't care how they have to come out.  The best thing about this is that it is for certain the last four weeks.  There is an end in sight.  You have a due date.

Adoption, not so much.  No due date.  The excitement and the anticipation is there and then the end of the wait comes, but there is no end in sight.  Do you prepare a room now?  Is it too soon?  Should I make summer plans?  Do we sign up for the adoption conference?  Oh, it is sooo hard.  It is so hard to be patient.  It is so hard to trust in the when.  It drains me some days, some weeks. I have just become tired, and weary (just like you do at the end of a pregnancy).  People ask all the time "When is she coming home?"  I love when people ask me about her because it means they are thinking about her, but I have no clue!!!  

We have been waiting for 25 months.  The average time seems to be around 26-27 months right now, but we just don't know.  I should've entitled last week "The week I acted like a BIG WHINY BABY"!  Such lack of faith, so many tears.  I truly acted like a toddler.  But, the funny thing (or not) is that my BSF lecturer started off this weeks lesson saying "God's timing is perfect...."  And the notes started out "Do you ever think that God has forgotten you?"  HA!  How did they know I needed to hear this.  God knew.  He knew exactly what I needed to hear.  I love how he stands beside me no matter how I am acting.  We have been studying Joseph in BSF and it has been the perfect time for me to be in this study.  I want to be like Joseph.  He was sold into slavery by his brothers, he was wrongly accused of rape by his employer's wife, he was thrown into prison, he was forgotten by the cupbearer.  But, God was preparing him all along.  Joseph did not become bitter.  He knew God was with him and blessing him all along the journey.  God delivered him and gave him everything he needed during the wait.  He was preparing him for his future. God never forgot him.  

 He has not forgotten me.  He has not forgotten our daughter. I am praying that I will just LET GO! When she comes home, it will be God's perfect timing.

Now, off to get my fingerprints redone.  Third times a charm, right??